Through Me

2011-02-11T00:17:00.001+08:00

Guys can be so fucking annoying.

2011-02-09T15:05:00.001+08:00

Max depression.

2011-02-09T14:41:00.000+08:00

Ehekelxnkeoさあそはjsxhsbsjkzjej'nkkKahn!kJdjrkek:88,&39@*{*~*,

2011-02-09T14:34:00.001+08:00

Here we go again and I don't know why...

2011-01-11T07:39:00.001+08:00

My Extremely Demanding Wish List:

1. That one thing that will make me wake up happy;

2. Canon EOS Kissx4; and

3. iPhone 4 because the camera is so much better than that of iPhone 3GS.

How now brown cow?

2011-01-09T09:14:00.000+08:00

Saving up for (likely) a Canon EOS Kiss!

2011-01-07T13:40:00.001+08:00

Gossipers will gossip.

FML.

2011-01-07T00:40:00.001+08:00

It's Your Will not mine...

2011-01-05T22:07:00.001+08:00

Dear God, please help me~

2011-01-04T04:30:00.003+08:00

Dearie,

I woke up crying at 4.25am. I just had a nightmare that I was nothing to you and you were being mean.

Yet I do not dare call you because reality is not far from my nightmare. If I call, you will tell me to get out of your life completely and that will hurt me more. This is not something I can take at this moment.

I remember once in the distant past I dreamt that you wanted to leave me and I woke up crying aloud. I called you and you assured me that you would love me forever.

Things have changed and I now turn to my blog to make the crying stop.

If only it makes my pain stop too...

Night..

2010-12-25T16:48:00.002+08:00

2010-12-25T16:48:00.001+08:00

http://d3uwin5q170wpc.cloudfront.net/photo/61759_460.jpg

2010-12-24T10:28:00.001+08:00

Needs a big bear hug now..

2010-12-23T17:20:00.001+08:00

Come back Dearie.

2010-12-23T11:09:00.000+08:00

Emo time like this, all I need is a nice stuffed toy.

2010-12-17T00:15:00.001+08:00

Boyz II Men - On Bended Knee

2010-12-16T23:07:00.000+08:00

2010-12-01T14:47:00.000+08:00

I am totally addicted to you (both of) you.

Heh.

2010-11-28T04:42:00.000+08:00

Thanks to PassionsInsanity for the inspiration.

2010-11-23T03:13:00.001+08:00

Even though reality is in Singapore, I feel like I am truly living when I am in Japan with you.

直ぐ帰って来る、だから私を待って。

2010-11-06T05:32:00.001+08:00

十一月十一日に日本に行く。

超楽しみ！

2010-11-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

I feel so hurt and disappointed that my only consolation is it's you who hurt me and not Cynthia.

2010-10-29T01:32:00.001+08:00

2010-10-29T00:46:00.000+08:00

Spare a thought for me and respect what I want.

2010-10-27T09:21:00.000+08:00

I have a sweet affair with Koi's coconut jelly milk tea.

2010-10-25T01:31:00.000+08:00

Dumb and childish but true.

F the middle child syndrome.

2010-10-05T11:14:00.002+08:00

Only He can make it all happen for me.

2010-09-06T00:54:00.002+08:00

1 year without you, I am with someone new.

I can't let go but you don't care.

You don't care anymore.

2010-08-17T21:58:00.002+08:00

It has been not too long ago since you came into my life and turned it upside down. You are all I think about now; at home, at work, with friends and family and even when talking to my Baby. You didn't appear for years and how I have waited for this day.

You have no idea.

It's wrong, I know but it's uncontrollable and undeniable. My friends think I am crazy and
maybe they are right.

Because, I do, love you Starcraft 2.

2010-08-15T10:30:00.001+08:00

The distance is taking a toll on me yet I am
not willing to give you up, baby.

Find me a job in the land of the rising sun.

2010-08-13T01:06:00.000+08:00

2010-08-11T10:56:00.002+08:00

Almost nothing irritates me more than ignorance and stupidity.

And bad looks don't help.

2010-08-03T01:06:00.002+08:00

I am struggling with the right words so maybe it's best to put it simply:

I wish I look much better so life would be easier.

2010-07-26T20:25:00.000+08:00

God's answer to your prayer is no surprise.

Just believe.

2010-07-22T23:11:00.000+08:00

Whatever happens, I have my bff Terry :)

2010-07-20T21:51:00.000+08:00

2010-07-16T22:34:00.002+08:00

I am on a train to KL now!

I think I was only 4 or 5 when i first and last took the train into Malaysia. 久しぶり！

I am hell excited! :) so long Singapore, just for a while!

2010-07-16T01:16:00.002+08:00

凧子と私は勇樹を待ってる！

勇樹も待ってるよ？

2010-07-14T23:03:00.001+08:00

It's not permanent now but I know it will soon be.

Baby just wait and see. :)

2010-07-13T23:46:00.002+08:00

I smile and pretend that my worries don't exist, with nowhere and no one to run to.

Sorry blog, you take the blunt of it all.

2010-07-12T15:49:00.002+08:00

I want a fluffy unicorn that is so fluffy I am going to die!

2010-07-10T23:21:00.000+08:00

Church + Breakfast tomorrow, I promise!

2010-07-09T19:06:00.003+08:00

勇樹，私はここにいる。貴方のこと待ってる。

2010-07-08T09:04:00.001+08:00

Football is beautiful game; both the play and the men.

Ok, work. After a 2.30am match, it's going to be tough.

2010-07-08T01:48:00.001+08:00

I say what I say but I don't mean it, just only wish it to be.

Baby won't you treat me kindly?

2010-07-07T19:04:00.000+08:00

Random thought while waiting for the girls: baby you make me needy. :)

2010-07-05T19:56:00.001+08:00

日本で仕事したいでも日本語あまり知ら無い。だから難しい。。。

2010-07-02T00:02:00.001+08:00

It is God's will but my initiative.

2010-07-01T01:15:00.001+08:00

He promised the moon and the stars.

You promised the sun and the rainbow.

In the end, all I get is rain.

2010-06-29T21:35:00.002+08:00

日本語は超難しい!でも頑張る!

2010-06-28T10:22:00.001+08:00

It feels so good to move on.

:)

2010-06-18T23:56:00.003+08:00

Dang. Utter rubbish scores for the World Cup. Given that the unexpected keeps happening, I will be keeping my fingers crossed for Netherlands.

Meanwhile, come back soon.

2010-06-18T01:26:00.001+08:00

Baby I am amazed by you.

2010-06-14T02:45:00.002+08:00

Sweep me off my feet and bring me to a place where my heart smiles again. Show me the glitter and immerse me in laughter.

It will be just you and me. The rest, we don't have to care.

2010-06-03T01:02:00.002+08:00

I would wait till the last hour of my life to walk down that aisle with you, and only you.

Then my last hour will be all that I am living for and it's worth it.

Just give me the word and I would.

But it is likely I am waiting in vain.

There won't be Eileen and Lloyd anymore.

2010-05-29T10:22:00.001+08:00

Taken for granted.

2010-05-24T00:10:00.000+08:00

Lloyd.

2010-05-21T01:10:00.000+08:00

8 months after, I still miss you.

2010-05-12T00:09:00.001+08:00

Nothing's permanent.

2010-05-07T00:20:00.000+08:00

Baby, I am so sorry.

2010-04-26T23:11:00.002+08:00

I know I have accepted you as part of my life if I call you a friend and not a colleague or a someone from school or a friend's friend or a just someone I know.

And that's rare.

:)

2010-04-23T12:25:00.002+08:00

Oh my gosh.

I do get so irritated when I can't have a logical conversation with someone. I think it's amazing how some people cannot think systematically. He or she will start to rattle something that is not related to the argument topic. Totally missing the point.

I can cite irrelevant comments and "arguments" and it will be so darn plain to see that he or she is just going way off tangent. But shan't do that in case these people tumble upon this blog. =X

People should really think before they put forth an argument.

Sadly, most people don't think.

Sadly, I don't have that kind of patience for the lack of logic.

2010-04-20T15:20:00.002+08:00

Not supposed to be blogging now but bah, I feel terrible.

I need to get out from my past and move on.

It hurts that it's over and it hurts to know that I am dispensible.

And it sucks to be in the office now.

2010-04-18T23:30:00.002+08:00

OH
MY
GOSH!
MY WEEKEND FLEW PAST ME!

Ok~ Can't wait for next weekend~

But before that, will be celebrating Ter's 25th birthday on Tuesday! =)

Meanwhile, hope to see you Dearie in my dreams.

Night!

2010-03-26T02:50:00.003+08:00

Thanks for the sympathy but that's not what I want.

Dearie, all I want is to be with you.

2010-03-21T22:47:00.002+08:00

Why is it so hard for me and so easy for you?

The thought of you being with someone else tears me apart while you are almost glad that I am with someone new.

Is it because I love you but you don't?

Maybe it is really time to move on...

2010-03-20T12:12:00.001+08:00

Remember remember the 1st of November.

I do and am waiting for it to happen again.

2010-03-20T03:32:00.001+08:00

Ages.

Am back.

For the time being.

2009-04-22T22:41:00.001+08:00

In my world, you can get away with murder.

2009-04-16T02:21:00.001+08:00

treasure.

2009-03-23T15:19:00.000+08:00

I love you! =)

2009-03-05T02:43:00.002+08:00

In just the 7 months or so that you have been with us, you have brought so much joy and laughter in our lives. I miss you every single moment that I don't see you and I am not exaggerating. I miss you in school, during holidays, and sheesh, even on dates.

You make me smile and make me feel everything is alright as long as you are with me, even during my darkest hours. I am not exactly having the time of my life now, given the economic situation and my confusion, but I am happy with you. Your presence comfort me.

I love you Cookie.

2009-03-02T11:08:00.003+08:00

From Ho Chi Minh, with love~

2009-02-22T16:15:00.004+08:00

Boo. I lost my Valentine's Day photos because my damnable card reader destroyed my memory, in whatever way I do not know and do not care. Grr. Anyhow, I am still a tad irritated and well, erps, depressed about it. I am just going to bum around. While bumming, I found this video and I know all you pre-1990 babies will love it!

I love it!

2009-02-02T11:08:00.000+08:00

Creeepy! First McD's ad!

2009-02-02T02:07:00.001+08:00

Males and their indecisiveness.

Who says us females can't make up our minds? At least we know who we love for sure.

2009-01-22T14:08:00.001+08:00

D
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2009-01-22T01:36:00.002+08:00

One bad news after another; I don't know to take it.

Times like these I really question what is there in store for me and why am I the one with all the bad luck. I know I should trust God and His plans but it really is so hard. There are so many questions in my head regarding all these happenings - the most pressing one, "Why this shit on me?".

It is so frustrating that I am not given a break. For just a moment, I was a given a slightest bit of hope but this was taken away the very next moment. And this hope may never ever return. Seriously, what did I do to deserve this crap?

I hate this. I really do. I don't know if I am strong enough, emotionally and mentally. I am so sick of this shit.

2009-01-19T01:44:00.000+08:00

Amazing. Wish I can play like that.

2009-01-17T21:47:00.002+08:00

In less than a week, it will be determined. I will either be elated or depressed.

I can't do much except to prepare myself, for better or worse, and leave it to God to decide my path.

2009-01-13T23:55:00.002+08:00

RANT.

Why don't I ever get what I want?

Why does good things always happen to the other girls?

All these, while I can only look on, green with jealousy.

Sighs.

2009-01-03T02:30:00.005+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

And, very very BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS!

While we celebrate Christmas with our loved ones with pretty decorations and scrumptious food, let's not forget the real meaning of Christmas, the existence of Jesus and the love of our mighty God. He is the reason why we are able to celebrate Christmas. Also, let's not forget the less fortunate. We can always share, care and pray for them.

If you can, please take some time to read it, as Jesus had given up the rest of his time for us.
http://comereason.org/cmp_rlgn/cmp005.asp
(Thank you Kendrick for the link!)

I love 2008 and am looking forward to 2009 and beyond and I wish the same for everyone out there! =)

2008-11-28T23:40:00.002+08:00

ONE MORE PAPER TO GO! =)

It suddenly struck me that my school life is really going to be over; no more exams, no more classes, no more homework and no more silly need for class participation. Kudos but that means that I will soon have no more freedom, no more lazy afternoons (on weekdays that is), no more student value movie treats, no more carefree mentality.

I would choose school life, anytime. Give me the exams and the homework, I will relish it.

2008-11-27T23:20:00.000+08:00

Interview question: What can I notice about when you are under pressure?

My answer: I bite my nails and I eat a lot.

How screwed up can I be?

2008-11-26T15:43:00.001+08:00

2 papers down, still 2 more to go.

cheer me up.

buy me a stuffed toy.

2008-11-22T02:31:00.002+08:00

HOO HAH!

2 more days to Dooms Day!

AT AT AT AT AT AT AT AT AT!

I am going to Accounting Hell for sure!

Yay-ness!!!

I think for the 1st time in my life, I will have no choice but to submit a blank paper!

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

COOOOKIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeee!

2008-11-18T10:08:00.002+08:00

SMU WEEK 14!!!
I
am
dying!!!

So much to do, so much to read, so much to understand.

I need more time to study but I can't wait for exams to come to get done and over with them. Then, it will be Shanghai-Macau-HK! =D

A part of me wants to go because I have never been to Shanghai but a HUGE part of me don't want to go because it means I will be away from Cookie for 2 weeks! *Rants*

Anyway, wish me all the best in my exams. I need well wishes and a miracle~

I LOVE COOOKIEEEEEEEEe!

2008-11-01T00:21:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 3RD ANNIVERSARY DEAR!!!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU (and Cookie)!!!

2008-10-14T13:17:00.002+08:00

Sad, it is, that people lose their tops for the slightest matter.

Sadder, it is, that people can't put their pride down to apologize.

Saddest, it is, that people's relationships are spoilt, permanent or not, for the above.

2008-08-31T23:11:00.001+08:00

little miss.understood.

no matter how hard i try, you don't see it.

the words you say cut deep.

please see that i am trying.

2008-08-27T01:49:00.002+08:00

I thought it would be easy to let you go but when I said those words, my heart tightened, my eyes teared. Why is it so?

Wish we could just stay in love.

2008-08-22T23:03:00.002+08:00

It has been 5 days since you came back in my life.

Happy, confused, a myriad of feelings.

Tell me where we are heading to.

2008-08-17T23:21:00.002+08:00

i miss you more than i should, i can't keep my mind off of you.

will things be the same now that you are back?

2008-08-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

Indeed.

2008-08-08T22:46:00.004+08:00

Day 5 with Cookie:

I love Cookie more and more each day! =) Housebreaking is really a chore and it takes a toll on me mentally and physically. I am lucky to have Cynthia and Anna to help me housebreak Cookie.

Today, Cookie went out himself to eliminate! I was so elated, like a mum hearing her child call her "mummy" the first time! I really do hope Cookie can be housebroken soon so that Anna and Cynthia won't have such a hard time, especially since my school term is starting soon.

I will continue to work hard with Cookie so do wish me luck!

Anyway, yesterday was Mum's ** Birthday! Happy birthday Mummy! Sorry that it may not be what you wanted, but I will make it up to you! Will be bringing the family for Equinox buffet soon to celebrate your birthday again!

2008-08-04T23:57:00.002+08:00

Day 2 with Cookie

I am more and more in love with Cookie! He means the world to me! =)

Housebreaking is not easy though. He knows where to go to sleep but he still needs to learn where to do his business. Sigh... I will persevere!

I love my Cookie!

2008-08-04T00:45:00.001+08:00

1245am: I went to check on Cookie.

He is sleeeeeeeping! He looks so sweeeeet! =)

Can't wait for him to be awake in the morning!

2008-08-03T23:09:00.002+08:00

I HAVE JUST GOTTEN A DOG!!!

HIS NAME IS COOKIE AND HE IS A KING CHARLES SPANIEL!!!

I know, I know!! i have been raving about having a Chihuahua for AGES!! But it was love at first sight with Cookie! He is a tri-colored King Charles which is really rare and he has the sweetest face ever! That spelled the end of my hunt for a Chihuahua. No doubt I would love one still but my heart is all for Cookie now! =)

I love Cookie to bits!!!

Info:
Name: Cookie
Birthday: 27th April 2008
Breed: Cavalier King Charles Spaniel

I will post pictures of my love soon! <3!

2008-08-01T20:02:00.002+08:00

It's official! I want a Chihuahua! A long-hair Chihuahua! I am looking for reputable breeders now so do let me know if you know any, ok?

Watch this video and perhaps you will convert to a Chihuahua-lover like me!

I love Chihuahuas!

2008-07-30T00:42:00.002+08:00

I may be getting another dog soon! Yay-ness!

I am thinking of a:

1. Long-hair Chihuahua
2. Papillon
3. King Charles Spaniel

=)